April loves YOU :)

Starlight Tears

2009-05-11T07:05:00.000-07:00

the white starlight envelops the tears

the tears fall in the warm wind

do you feel it?

this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way

i draw you on this white paper

the warm smile holds me

is this love?

even when i close my eyes, i see only you

i will be waiting for you

i will wait for you

i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore

you let me know

love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go

because that love is

walking in my memories with you

the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart

what should i do?

in my dreams, i miss you

i will be waiting for you

i will wait for

don't want to see the tears of pain

you let me know

this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it

that love is you

please look at me, like the faraway stars

can't you be the one that's in my heart

i will be waiting for you

i will wait for you

i don't want to see the tears of pain

you let me know

this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go

because that love is you

2009-04-25T06:56:00.000-07:00

Leave

Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you

I was so wrong, forgive me

My broken heart like a wave

My shaken heart like a wind

My heart vanished like smokeIt can’t be removed like a tattoo

I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in

Only dusts are piled up in my mind(say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you

But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought

You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”

I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?

Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?

I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you

I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

Don’t look back and leave

Don’t find me again and live (on)

Because I have no regrets from loving you,

take only the good memories

I can bear it in some way

I can stand in some way

You should be happy if you are like this

I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry

You’re my all, say goodbye…

If we pass by each other on the street

Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to

If you keep thinking about our past memories

I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind

Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever

Please live well as if I should feel jealous

You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud

Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

I hope your heart fees relieved

Please forget about me and live (on)

Those tears will dry completely

As time passes by

It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)

Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby

I pray for you

Oh girl I cry, cry

You’re my all, say goodbye, bye

Oh my love don’t lie, lïe

You’re my heart, say goodbye...

HARU HARU-BIG BANG

2009-04-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

injure knee,affected the brain!

Love

2009-04-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

Love and art do not embrace what is beautiful

but what is made beautiful by this embrace.

Love was before the light began, When light if over,

love shall be.

Love me little, love me long,

Is the burden of my song.

There is no love.

There's only love of men and women,

love Of children, love of friends, of men,

of God:

Divine love, human love,

parental love, Roughly discriminated for the rough.

Love is a great thing.

It is not by chance that in all times and practically

among all cultured peoples love in the general sense

and the love of a man for his wife are both called love.

If love is often cruel or destructive,

the reasons lie not in love itself,

but in the inequality between people.

2009-04-19T07:34:00.000-07:00

If exchanging my life

meant that I could be with you,

dying would be so easy.

My love is without direction and without end.

Who knows where it may take me.

Only this can I say for sure,

All I wish for is to be with you.

Even in the night,

people may be led astray by firelight,

and without a care for consequences,

fall in a love that flutters more wildly than the

fireflies

LOVE

2009-04-18T07:20:00.000-07:00

We all want to fall in love. Why?

Because that experience makes us feel completely alive,

where every sense is heightened,

and every emotion is magnified.

Our everyday reality is shattered

and we are flung into the heavens.

It may only last a moment, an hour, or an afternoon,

but that doesn't diminish its value,

because we are left with memories

that we treasure for the rest of our lives

Flowers

2009-04-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

I left you in the morning,

And in the morning glow,

You walked a way beside me

To make me sad to go.

Do you know me in the gloaming,

Gaunt and dusty gray with roaming?

Are you dumb because you know me not,

Or dumb because you know?

All for me And not a question

For the faded flowers gay

That could take me from beside you

For the ages of a day?

They are yours, and be the measure

Of their worth for you to treasure,

The measure of the little while

That I've been long away.

Poetry

2009-04-17T07:02:00.000-07:00

Well,i have been recently interested in poems.I find it really nice and soothing.Whenever i read a poem,it somehow relates to my life.Ill always read poems by famous poetry and will publish them in my blog,ill also publish songs that are very deeply touch and makes sense.

This blog is considered where i put my most enchanted memoirs of people i will remember in life!

If you guys want to read my updates on my routine of life go to my live journal.Add me there too!

2009-04-11T07:35:00.000-07:00

Well,today life was a bless.Still breathing.

NIJI

2009-03-30T07:33:00.000-07:00

Itll be okay, just look upIts okay, do you see the seven color (rainbow) bridge?

We can finally smile beneath the same sky

When we re-tie our shoelaces, the wind pushes us forward

Lets continue our dreams beyond the light that spills from the sky

My heart beats within my chest, hope and fear pulsate through my veins

I wonder if its really okay, I wonder if I can make it through it all

Itll be okay, just look up

Its okay, do you see the seven color (rainbow) bridge?Its formed in the sky by the tears you shedHey, I know you can see it in the distance

I can see it too, same as you

Our two skies now become as one

We can finally smile beneath the same sky

We were born with different skies, skies that reflect our memories

You have your own story and tears I know nothing about

I might have been smiling at the same time you were crying

There may be similar kinds of happiness, but I doubt that for sadness

You place a border on the future with promises and adorn it with words

Im sure you wanted a guaranteed tomorrow more than anyone

Like a single season that goes by

Let your sad times remain sad

Dont rush to turn them into happiness

Its okay,

Im here for youIts okay, Im not going anywhere

When its time to run, Ill still run together with you

Would that bridge form in a world without tears?

The graffitti scrawled on the wall resembled someones handwriting

You wanted to build a bridge to get away from sadness

But now I close my eyes and toss my umbrella away

Its okay

Itll be okay, just look up

Its okay, do you see the seven color (rainbow) bridge?

Look up in your sky that has cried all of its tears

Hey, I know you can see it shining brightly

I can see it too, same as you

The rainbow of our bond has formed

And now

Our two skies will finally, finally become as one

And get us to run

2009-03-29T07:17:00.000-07:00

WeLL let the pics do the talking!!

We had fun!haha.In the end we didnt even study!haha.

Adios amigos:)

April is coming!

2009-03-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

Well April is coming which means, im going to be sixteen soon! and it also means that N levels are coming! I have started my revision already,can't waste anymore time.Started on maths,chemistry and social studies.Still alot more to go.I was pratically at home the whole day,in the morning played piano, in the afternoon, took a short nap, played wii and then i started to study till 930pm.So now my free time to use the computer.MUAHAHA!

Im feeling tired this few days and i have to like let my knee rest and eat the medicine.Haven't yet recover..taking a long time.

toodles

Stress!!

2009-03-23T06:44:00.000-07:00

I seriously don't know what to do if i cant do physical exercise anymore!

My knee is still loose and i got this injury that can cause me big time.The doc said it might be too early

for the injury but there is a chance of it coming true!

Ah! If there is still no progress of my knee, i have to go for a scan,and i bloody

don't know what to do.I still have to rest for another month!!AH!!

This is so great!!

Yet another wednesday!

2009-03-18T07:47:00.001-07:00

Well,today spend my time more on outdoors then indoors.Morning went for breakfast with sheryl,huan and hayati at loyang point mac.Yet again the slowest one to eat.haiz.Hayati was disgusting again!not surprising though.She made another rojak which is called"hayati secret ingredient." The rarest ingredients you can ever fine!haha!After eating till our stomach nearly bursting not cause of food but "hayati secret ingredient."Yes!Yes!We went to buy snacks at sheng shiong,while making a fool of ourselves there,as if we never go there in our entire life!haha!I still haven't finish my burger!haha!Walk to school in the heat!Phew.Well Poa was a drag.Couldn't get a thing to my head!But anyway i still understand the topic.Went home and played wii.Nothing better to do.Then went off to study with subhi.Met hayati again in the library with her bff.Waiting for that pig to arrive.He was late for half an hour!!!cheh!Well hayati went(yippee) and continued my day studying with subhi at the library.Maths was a drag too.Luckily i finish most of it,as for subhi he wanted to finish the damn drawing before we went to eat.Waited for like 10 mins!He was still laughing,making his face like "err,what did you just say" IRRITATING!!haha.

Bega didn't came.We went to find food and in the end ate hotdog which my one suck!! ended giving it to subhi.haha.Walk from white sands all the way to ehub.Save money! and oh yar! bought my earrings and anklet!haha.Subhi bought belguim chocolate from coffee bean and it was tempting me but i have to save my money!Walked all the way home,eventhough my knee hurts,as if i care.haha.Subhi went toa payoh and i went to giant!Yet again!Family outing to giant!i dont even want to talk bout it!ah!Right now playing my guitar and typing on this blog.haha!Well tomorrow, i got Netball training but not training!*sob*sob*

Toodles!

Ps:still allergic to homeworks!!!!!

New Journal

2009-03-17T07:06:00.000-07:00

Greetings! earthliens!

I have a new web for you to see! Dont worry im still updating this blog and my new livejournal!ADD ME!!!!!:)

Hols suck!

2009-03-16T07:35:00.001-07:00

Well some people complain that my font is too small!!nah amik kau!!HAHA!

Well i got nothing better to do in the holiday,just going out and having fun! with an injured knee! I guess life can be boring when all is planned out for you.No surprises on what is to come the next day,because you know what is coming!haiz.Well tomorrow,im going out again,but with my family!sian!My knee is healing slowly,kudos to eunice,zhiying,hayati,hidayah,yihuan and mark for carrying me eventhough im heavy.Well today i got training but i didnt train!*sob* Well there was speech day parade rehearsel! I pity those who are in the parade.They have to stand for like a long period of time,while i was enjoying eating pandan bread infront of them!haha.Sorry man! was super hungry.Well it didnt get any better when i was soaked in the rain which was raining cats and dogs!Thanks to victo(lending me a cute elmo umbrella)I can go home in that atrocious rain.Well i guess thats it for today,wait till tomorrow comes,then i tell.

BTW Im officially allergic to homeworks!!

Toodles :)

2009-03-09T07:11:00.000-07:00

Well,i have no idea what to update because i got nothing to update...Well i injured my right knee and now having a hard time not doing physical stuff!!boohoo..*sob*sob*Trying to make it recover before friday so that i can run!!haha!!Impossible i guess!!Hols are coming and i have no idea what to do...I bet ill go out and eat or get my knee heal...haha..fat hope!!AH!give me some interesting phrases and ill splat it out..I guess life getting harder!cheh!so piss off!Im going to change my background in a few days time!haha...Well cheering and crosscountry are coming up...which means the end of term 1 and i cant run!!!Boohoo!!no trophy for me!!But im going to force myself to run!!i dont care!!hmph!!hehe..sturborn as always..haha..I cant wait to eat swensens and fresh bulggogi!!ahah!!and i wish one day i can meet my soulmate..haha..T.O.P!!HAHA!and went that day comes.....wait till it comes then i tell.haha.

Updating!

2009-02-28T23:57:00.000-08:00

Its been a long time since i update.Busy with school,netball and my life.Ill try to update more often.So Today its like the third month of 2009!Super fast man!Damn tomorrow i got game with dunman.DIE!haha.Its good that our team went second round,and we want go top four!woohoo!Everyone in the team is working hard.Me too!except for breaking the rules.haha.Yesterday was fun!haha.Went to alot of places.First was we wanted to go marina barrage but cant.Then we went to esplanade.The roof terrace was just beautiful eventhough i went for like dunno how many times,but still beautiful!haha.Wanted to go flyer but it was rainning.haiz.there goes my chance.haha.Then we went vivocity.Bought clothings at zara!There was a show about womans in dresses and guys in coats.haha.so boring..Then we went to eat ,was like super hungry and it was like 6 plus already.hehe.Next was simling square.Bought mp3 again.hehe.Its like super cheap..hehe.our last stop was courts haha.Bought my speaker,earpiece and hairdryer.haha.Actually we wanted go white sands but it was rainning very heavily,so we went home...Yesterday was the best day!hehe.Thx!Today didnt go anywhere,time to study.haha.

Till next time!!!

after a long time

2009-01-13T06:10:00.002-08:00

I know its been a long time since i updated my blog.haha.I just got my laptop and now jumping like mad! haha.Well i cannot update much today cause i am so tired in fixing my new laptop.haha.I too just finish training so its sort of tirig for me!Well school was boring.haha.YES!
Haiyah continue tmr!

CHANGE!

2008-12-01T22:22:00.000-08:00

Life is unpredictable,many things have changed in my life.Sometimes i wondered,why do changes have to occur in our lifes?why do people change?for the better or worser?Others just comment or give words of encouragement.Maybe changes should be made like stop globalwarming,stop hatred and war! Life should change for the better,seeing others in pain,poverty and scared of what will happen next,its just tormenting.The world should change.Stop War!Stop Hatred and Stop Greed!Each of us came to earth for a purpose,to taste sweetness,pain,suffering of life and help one another.Im living in a peaceful life but they are others out there suffering and we take our lifes for granted.Change should be made in their lifes.Everyone has a part to play.Nobody is perfect in this world,everyone will die,so why cant we live peacefully?Lets bring changes in everyone lifes starting with your loved ones.Change for the better:)

Wedding:)

2008-11-30T05:28:00.000-08:00

Well today is my uncle wedding, it was kind of loud(cause of the music) and i didnt get a picture of him!!cheh!!Seriously he looks like taufik batisah,haha. I have a few pics to show so let the pics do the talking(cause im kind of lazy to write)hehe. I HAD FUN THOUGH!

well he was kind of irritated by me!

Spastic face!!

Yummy cookie!!

Simple yet lethagic day again!!

2008-11-29T05:57:00.001-08:00

Hey! I got nothing better to do at home today..so might as well take Pics ryt..haha.I ransacked the my wadrobe giving it a change and ended up with a running nose,A BAD ONE!haha.Its pretty clean and had it arranged neatly.haha.It was always need!hehe.Watch the cheaper by the dozens 2 and it was super hilarious..I got to the final stage for SUPER MARIO!!woohoo.but the stupid dragon had to make more challenges for me,i thought i on but have another level!!cheh!!But still im at the final stage!!woohoo!!haha.Damn it.tomorrow WEDDING!! ah!! Have to like get ready before 2pm!i hate wearing baju kurung so erm i dunno but i still dont like!!haha.Anyway ill think tomorrow will end up me taking loads of pics of myself and the wedding get ready to see the pics!!haha.Btw my uncle looks like taufik batisah.haha.serious,ill upload the pics tomorrow!haha.

YOYO!!

REMATCH:)

2008-11-28T04:30:00.000-08:00

Well yesterday,was just damn funny in the morning..We all thought we were supposed to report at Springfield sec at 930 but in end up 830.Everyone started to call each other.haha.I was with zena,yun er and daph.We were eating our breakfast together and were like swallowing our meal.It was already pass 830 and we were like,haiyah dont care lah like as if they were scold as we are not in the wrong what.haha.So we took the train to tampines mrt station,waited for eunise and rachel lee.They were kind of fast,haha,cause rachel said eunise walk super fast,haha.Then we had to take bus 69 cause its the only bus there and the bus came in time.We were looking out for the school and eunise said it had a big field,then we wanted to go down but it was just a soccer field,haha.LOL!!Then we saw the school and alighted the bus.The school is kind of old,with the colours fading.So everything ended well with us winning(im so lazy to state the specific details of the game)So me and zena head back home first cause i had to rush home as my mum needed to go out inviting people to my uncle wedding next year,it will be so buzy this december and i hate it!!haha.Yesterday was kind of boring.I played my bro nintendo ds,nothing to do.and had my life up and down the bed.haha.Jumping.hehe.Today was nothing much either.haha.I hate weddings have to like dress up!!NO!!haha.I have to like go to this wedding on sunday,the only time i could spent for myself and its gone!!NO!!!-.-

Hate it!!

Bluekisses Behappy BubbleBlue

YOYO!!

Im SUPER drain out!!

2008-11-26T06:44:00.000-08:00

Sorry guys,didnt blog for the past two days,am super tired after the carnival.Yesterday was horrible,i fell sick and had to suffer with a runny nose!cheh!Kept sneezing all the time and worse still my body was aching from head to toe.I didnt do anything much yesterday,like help my mum if she needed anything and i mostly played my psp,sims2.haha.But my cousin went back home today so i didnt get to play,cheh!Today had training and mr san came back.Was kind of shocking.haha.So we train and am now more drain out!Tomorrow we are having a rematch with springfield and i dont like at all!!!Seriously im going to fall sick anytime,and people say i have to be strong,yeah i get it!!Ill post more issues about tomorrow cause i know something bad will happen...haha.

Netball Carnival!!

2008-11-24T05:56:00.000-08:00

Today was the postpone match for the netball carnival.I woke up so early in the morning just to reach in school 715am and was supposed to report at 750am!!!I waited like a fool there.haha.Im kinda of slow sometimes!!haha.Eunice lost ten dollars and blame it on the top up machine.It was super funny.haha.At around 8am we took off to kallang netball.The sec2s were playing first then us after like 1 and half hour.haha.We won bedok south and was the top in the group.Then we had to play against tampines(which we won smoothly),springfield(Erm,i dont want to mention) and sthildas(damn brutal,having backace).We got second in the group cause sthildas was sort of brutal and rough,seriously they were but the GK was nice.Then we had to play against a chij school,which is in the north,they played silently as if they can read each others mind.They played clean and swiftly,kind of cool and the GS,i have to say,her shooting is so accurate!Every shot went in.It was kind of pressuring though but we know we are not up to their standard yet,so we ended up fighting for 3rd and 4th position with sthildas as they lost to tkgs.They played rough again and i miss three shots which costs the whole game!Im still brooding about it.We lost by one,and ONE is alot!So coach talk to us stating our weaknesses and making a change in the position.Wednesday have training and thursday propably a match with springfield!Which i dont want to play!!And i was so piss off that we could not shake hand with an eurasian cause that miss lim took our trophy already and keeping it till next year reopen school to give out during assembly!!AH!!I couldnt even touch the trophy lah!!so maddening!!Was so drain out,super tired,cheh!haiz.Im like going to be more tend and i dont like!!!!!alot!!!!!Ah!!I feel like going for a milk bath!haha.weird!Thats it for now,i cant even open my eyes,haha,serious its true!!haha.Tomorrow will be sort of boring for me,have to stay at home the whole day!!ah!!But my psp will keep me company,haha,Im playing sims2.haha.I dont play barbie doll or hello kitty games okay!haha.

Bluekisses Behappy Bluechocolate

Mummy's Bday!!

2008-11-22T16:07:00.000-08:00

( Walking down the lane where memories once blossom)

Yesterday was my mum birthday,haha.It was super chaotic.So woke up early in the morning,help my mum in the kitchen(which i hate the most),she was cooking seafood,haiz not my favourite but it was her birthday so it was her wish.haha.While helping her,i didnt notice the time,it was like 1pm already and i was like shoot!Then i told my grandma that i wanted to go buy my mum presents and eventually i too had to return the library book cause it was due already.I quickly rush out of the house,went to white sands.At first,i had trouble finding a present for her but i went to watts in and found a beautiful pearl necklace and earring(i know she likes it)It didnt costs me much luckily as there was a promotion,haha.I didnt saw anyone at white sands so it was kind of a relief cause i hate to see creastians,no offence but im that type of person.haha.I went basement to buy for her a red rose and blue ones(my favourite!!)hers too.haha.I didnt take bus home,i thought walking is much more faster and i miss walking through town park.While walking i remember every significants memories happen there(which i dont want to say), It was kind of upsetting but it was nice though.haha.So went back home and there were already a few visitors at my house.haha.I quickly sneak in and went inside my room and hide the presents(im very good at sneaking)hehe.The food was already set up on the table and it was looking yummy.My stomach started to have thunder inside,cheh!Had to wait for the rest of the guest to come.But in the end we ate first as the other guests was sort of late.haha.I kind of eat alot yesterday,so tomorrow carnival, im going all out just to slim down and win.haha.After eating and all,not forgetting the cocktail,yum!haha.The rest of the guest came and they brought cake with them!YUM!Chocolate cake!After they eat and all,and when family members meet each other what do they talk about?Family matters!Bingo.I hate when they go to that topic is like a lecturer teaching you a topic which you do not need to know at all!!I sneak in my room and and carefully put the presents else where.haha.So after like an hour,they decided to stop at last.haha.It was time to cut the cake and opening the presents.haha.So i gave mine and my two brothers gave flowers(the one that I brought!)cheh!haha.So we ended up happy.haha.The cake was awesome(duh its chocolate!)ate one(but still got leftovers :D)All ended well with my uncle having a conversation with my cousin.Imagine a 32 year old man conversing with a 10 year old kid,It was really amusing,i was laughing my head off.haha.All ended well with my cousin,mubarak,sleeping over,so it was pretty great and we get to open the hamper that my mum brought back home.haha.It was like nothing much for me to grab cause all is kitchen stuff.cheh!!haha.The pictures of this exciting event is below,sorry i could not upload the video between my uncle and my cousin,it is too big.haha.

The food!!

Black pepper Crab!

Spaggettiiiess

Cocktail(yum!)

The pearl i bought for my mum

Meet Mirza ali

Meet Adam suffi

Birthday cake

Another bithday cake

bORED!!

2008-11-21T05:09:00.000-08:00

The picture on top is just capture for fun!haha.I was sort of bored,while reading the newspaper and found this interesting HEADING so i capture it.haha.Weird i know!!Got stomach cramp the whole day so as my mum.I didnt bring her to the FRESH BULGGOGI!!:( I seriously want to eat,but both got stung by this stupid cramps!So i didnt went for training!cheh!I wanted to go but looking at my condition,i didnt.I was like whinning on the bed,pissed off with the cramp,cheh!!Tomorrow will be chaotic cause my cousins are coming over for my mum birthday,she is turning 34 and her daughter is just 15 .hehe.Look how young her mum is,and of cause not forgetting her daughter too"Grining"haha.Yeah i know im boasting but i have to cherish all of my moments before going on 16 which like in 5 months time!!Super fast man!!haha.Going to be sweet sixteen and i cant wait(nc16 here i come!!)haha.You guess it.hehe.Time just flies fast right and i just finish blogging now,haha.Nothing much to say wait till tomorrow,loads of things i got to say.haha.Shit my library book is due today!!!ah!!!haha.I guess i have to pay like 15 cents!!okay lah!!haha.Its already the 21 of nov!haiz.school holidays is like going to end soon.Pfft!!!

PS:Holiday homeworks just suck,i still have not touch any yet let alone finding it(i dont know where i put it)haha.

Hard Day!

2008-11-20T04:49:00.000-08:00

Super Tired today.Training was getting tougher each day.Had to shoot like 15 for each quarters!!but as usual we did it with like 15 then 16 then 17 then 16 again.haha.Luckily,if not we had to run 20 rounds.haha.My body is like aching mad!!Especially my shoulder and my joints!(which i dont want to say)haha.Something happen today and its deborah again.haha.She got a spinning head.haha.Didnt bring my mum go to the restaurant,cause she have cook already!cheh!Im bringing her tomorrow!haha.This year the psle result drop,like 287 was the highest.haha.but i dont know which school.haha.Lazy lah to blog!The end!So bored sey todays one!!

Tired!!!!

2008-11-19T04:39:00.000-08:00

Wake up in the morning,ah! so tired already,still had to go for juniors training!Took off at 830am and as my usual,listen to songs while walking to school.Met sarah and someone who was with her(sorry dun knw the name,hehe),she still have not grow,haha.She got band,haha.Juniors training was okay lah,they improved and progress,but had to play with them.Super tired,sprint here and there,but good,haha,can loose weight!hehe.Then it was 11pm,went home to eat before going back to school for my training,cheh!It was so sunny and i know it was going to be a tough training.Eunise didnt came so had to train with victo,we got improved alot,haha.Then the weather change,sheesh!It started to rain,sheesh!Then we did this coconut game,where we had to jump and catch the ball.Jomanda they all ah! purposely put so high for me!haha.Then took back my revenge,hehe.Rachel seah damn steady lah,she naturally spring up,so cool!haha.Did arm strengthing again!!!AH!!luckily it was 20 seconds,haha.Deborah had this childsh thinking of rolling ourselves to the tower,and stupidly we did.haha.It was so fun then we played poison ball,haha,i lasted for quite a long time,hehe.Then went home,feeling so tired.My cousin came over and created a hell loads of noise!AH!so tired!!Now typing this post,nothing better to do..haha.Tmr im bringing my mum to FRESH BULGGOGI!!haha.yipee!!

VIDEO!

2008-11-18T04:55:00.000-08:00

THX TO MISS LIM THAT WE WERE LOST!

FRESH BULGGOGI

2008-11-18T04:12:00.000-08:00

Early in the morning,went to downtown east to order macdonald.haha.I was sort of late but it was the bus fault i waited for like 15 mins!Hayati was like whining that there were weird people there which is our schoolmates.haha.So we had to takeaway our food as it was 720am already and we were suppose to be in school like 730am,haha.Miss lim sms stating that the cab came already and we were like "WHAT??" haha.But luckily miss lim was kind enough in fetching us from downtown.haha.Thx Miss lim!haha.In the taxi,created loads of noise pollution about prom nite,MY china phone,"Leaper",hayati birthday,Miss lim going to sentosa for fencing camp,staring at the underground pass where it was so cool!,Listening to the beep sond that was created by the ERP,the meter that was rising,haha,the scenery of the place that we were in and at last we made it to OUTRAM SEC!haha.It was the place where the school house of rock originated from.haha.The school is like 6 storey high! and there is a lift! The toilet was so clean! and they got rock climbing! The school is so cool! We went there for the PRAXIS competition,i could have won!cheh!but there were some misunderstanding when playing the game! The prize was trophy and a present!ah!But i had fun though.This HOT! sec3 guy from outram name danial/daniel(dont know which spelling is correct),he was so cute!His complection is like supermodel,ah! and that hayati get to sit with him!cheh!Then something bad happen,thx to miss lim!We were lost in singapore!haha.weird rite,but seriously we were! at outram road! Ill put the video up which i took we were lost for about half an hour!Cause miss lim doesnt want to take cab home and we had to take train home while she went to vivo!cheh!Then hayati brought me to this korean restaurant called FRESH BULGGOGI,it was super nice! and worth my money and thx to hayati in lending me 2 bucks!haha.Im going there this saturday again!woohoo.Celebrating my mum Birthday there!haha.Sorry hayati,im going to eat there again haha.For this first time,hayati ate GREENS!Pictures are below(please dont be so tempted and end up eating your com!haha)

Postpone

2008-11-17T04:08:00.000-08:00

I was so excited about today,I cant wait playing against other schools but it had to rained.pfft!We played against 3 schools so far and won them all.haha.It was our 07cdiv team.It was kind of tiring playing 14 mins game straight.Lose weight man.haha.We were like staring at the Tkgs netballers and were like amaze on how tall they have grown.I remember,Sally, their GK,she was about my height during 07 and now she grew 1 head taller then me!I was like "oh my"Luckily there was no dunman,AH,Damai competiting in the netops carnival.I hope the prizes will be medal or trophy.haha.It was like raining heavily at 1045.We were like huh?y must rain so heavy.We waited for like 1 1/2 hours before they officially said it was postpone to next monday!cheh!But luckily the games we played earlier was counted.haha.We went reach school at around 245pm,which was quite early as we expected to go home at 6!I was seriously hungry,my stomach was already growling.Me,zena,eunise and the pyschos(which is the sec2s) went to white sand to eat,but luckily the pyschos went to eat KFC,which was fattening after like a carnival.haha.So me,zena and eunise decided to eat at kopitiam.Actually only me and zena ate,cause eunise did not want to eat.All the while,zena was complaining that she didnt get to drink strawberry oreo bubble tea,and eunise was like banana oreo also nice what.haha.In the end,zena got what she wanted,haha.So went home taking 359,while listening to music and observing weird people at the station.haha.Reach home,bath and cool myself down,and i ate again.haha.I wanted to sleep so badly but my family were watching a malay drama series!cheh!Was so frustrated that i gave up and went to eat again.haha.Im very slim,if you want to know.haha.Watch whatever tv series thats was featuring.I cant wait for tomorrow to come.haha.Going for the praxis gameboard competition.woohoo!In a maxim cab!yipee!haha.Going to eat mac in the morning,im not worry if i get fat cause the next three days i have training so i will lose all the fats i gain.haha.Super tired now,i dont know what will happened to me on monday!Carnival with like the defenders keep on pushing you!haha.Walk in the rain,it was so cold but i like it.haha.Ill end here lah.

Madagascar!!!

2008-11-15T16:34:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was fantabulous.haha.My family went to watch madagascar escape to africa.It was so hilarious,my favourite was the penguin.Melman is so loving,i want a bf like melman!haha.I think im going to put on weight after this few days ate popcorn,junk food actually,haha.The movie was so great,i kept on laughing.I love the whole outcome.I went to buy some school stuff already,ya i know impatient but ill be busy for the entire holidays with netball training.Might as well start early so won't have to panic.haha.Still missing my bestfriend.She is at indonesia now.cheh!She will be coming back this tuesday which i am going to have the praxis gameboard competition.Can't wait.haha.Tomorrow is the netops carnival,which is netball,haha.From 7am to 6pm depending on how far we go.We will make it to the finals.haha.My team is back to c div team.woohoo,but i still pity the sec2s going on sec3s.But work hard!Now typing early in the morning at 842.haha.nothing better to do at home.So till next time peeps...

Bluekisses Behappy

Grad Nite!

2008-11-14T17:52:00.000-08:00

Virgil doing peekaboo
Hall decorations(before)

The chair(blue!)

Somemore of decorations

Table decoration

Photo-taking segment

Charmian and me~

Me and jolene~

Entrance

More decorations!

Me Virgil Jolene

Me Jolene
Me Rizkha

Me(nothing better to do)

Hall (after)
Three of us again!

Charmian Jolene

It was Grad nite yesterday.It was the best night ever.All the decorations was beautifully set up and it was blue,ah! my favorite colour! i was like whining why was it this year blue and not next year.There is actually more pics but its scattered at alot of people.I took alot of photos and my eyes went blink-blink with all the flash.I was staring at the sec4s, some of them look so different especially suying(my senior).She was so beautiful with her puple dress and all the make-up and hairdo.Everyone was gorgeous and dashing.I cant wait for mine and i heard that it will be at hotel!I was like happy.Thats what mr shafie said to us.The Emcees for the grad nite was Miss shilia and mr ridzwan.haha.They were so funny and there was another Emcee name eugene,he was not from our school,overall the night was a night to remember.The food was quite alright not bad.The guys was like staring at the girls.haha.it was damn funny.There were video segment and they had to sing the school song before the event and after the event for the last time.Mr ong was the VIP as usual.haha.Everything went out perfectly,Mr leong did a show with his saxofone and the emp sec4 did a dance and there was this guy,he seriously can beatbox.It was super cool,everyone was cheering for him.I got the video but lazy to upload ah.haha.This year Mr creastian which is Prom king was Jordan and Miss creastian which is Prom Queen is Shazrin.It was funny as they needed to do some activities.Some had to beatbox,pay tribute to the teacher,advertise themselves and more.They had to catwalk and answer questions that was given by the teachers.haha.It was like finding miss universe and mr universe.And there it was,my favourite part the dancing part.Everyone was like taking photo and we had to clear the table!cheh!But we still got dance to the last three songs and the last song was"please dont stop the music" we were like jumping and dancing around as if we were drunk.haha.I dance my heart out eventhough my feet was numb.haha.It was the end after that,the sec4s had to bid farewell to each other,it is kind of sad that next year we had to bid farewell to our friends.Ill cry,honestly i will.Ill miss all the laughter we had together and all the fun times we had in school.Ill never forget about it.So that was it,went home,cool down and slept at 1230.haha.Till next post peeps:)

Bluekisses Behappy

2008-11-13T21:00:00.000-08:00

Didnt go to school today,damn tired.Still hurt right now,but its going to be okay.Im not going to see him for around a month now.Ill take it easy and try to find myself back.I learn not to trust people just like that,I have to find the truth in myself,trusting others is a hard thing for me now.Im going to do my best now,i have to change for the better.I dont want to be hurt anymore,Now this is the only place where i will let my hearts out.Ill be going to pasir ris park like the whole holiday,going to slim myself down and train for the tournament,maybe ill just get to be a national player,who knows.This holiday is going to be a tough rookie but ill just get a hold of it.Today its the big day for the sec 4s.Its their prom nite and ill be going to help out.haha.Mine will be next year and i cant wait.Ill be a much more better person.The first day of school,get ready to see the different side of me.Still have to do cip for nyaa silver at the library.ah!It will be in december.So any guys just tell me,ill go and do it for the sake of a certficate cause i got nothing better to do.Holiday homework are just piling up,going to finish it all by this month,i want to enjoy my december holiday to the max.I cant wait for 18 december,the movie twilight!Hayati dont forget bout me yah!Just invite anyone who wants to go,it doesnt matter if you hate the person or not,just get along.That will be it for now.

BLUEKISSES BEHAPPY:)

2008-11-13T06:36:00.001-08:00

Who do i bloody trust ryt now??Cant someone tell me who is telling the right damn story??Is it wrong for me to join them?everything i do is wrong and whatever i do is also wrong!What am i suppose to do then?Might as well jump off the building and die right!No problem!Ah!Slept in class to day,which is actually i cried silently!Why do this have to happen to me?Is it better if i leave?Maybe i should not have force my mum not to leave,if i leave maybe ill be happy so as others.Who cares anyway.Whatever bloody thing i do is wrong.Sick and tired!!!

2008-11-11T05:50:00.001-08:00

Today class was havoc!My left ear now is a bit of deaf now thanks to JESSLYN! Her voice bloody high lah,worse then opera.High frequency!!haha.But it was fun!hehe.Got bully again today!cheh!Tried to bully hilowyati,but fail!cheh!Me and Nabilah shared the same grudge.haha.It was fun to sit beside her and she got HIGHEST for physics test!woohoo!Congrats!Suffered heartace today again.I dont know when it will end maybe after i find another guy.Hopefully,a good guy,who dont used girls for fun.I want a guy who take me for real and not just crazy couple in love or puppy love which is monyet cinta.Guys who give chances cause im a human too with feelings and not a toy where you can play with it and throw aside after that.Guys who dont take me for granted and loved me with his whole heart.Guys who just be themselves than trying pretending to be good at first and changed after that.Just a jerk.You make my heart in pieces and you are still happy after everything you did?You just dont care.Im writing what i feel inside.If one day i get to burst it out,i will and i wont regret.YOU wounded my heart.Never will i trust you again and believe in you.You never know how it feel to be so in pain cause you have another girl to replenish your heart.You will only see pain in my eyes.Friends have limits too.You give up on me to be with her.Never give second chances and expect people to give you second chances or even more.I was so stupid.3 more days and i wont have to see you again.Being friends with you will just hurt me more.Now i know you just used me and you never had loved me.Thanks ah!Said sweet words just to melt my heart,give love letters,presents,i was stupid to fall for it.Accepting you was my biggest mistake in life.Thought you were the one but you are just the same as other guys.Now i just know..Im crying inside and you are out there having fun..how do you live with regrets??My love is frozen.

2008-11-10T04:49:00.000-08:00

Bloody tired today.Got training,and i feel slimmer now.haha.Today in class was havoc.Got blame for nothing!!Mr Ang lah!cheh!That hayati ah!!!make my face swollen sey!haha.but it is okay.Accidents are meant to happen and i hope it will not happen again!!(u get me hayati!)haha.The coach was damn funny.haha.*Rubbing*.haha.My stomach still feels hurt,cant eat alot:(
I dunno why but i still feel hurt.Very hurt.Its hard ro forget what you had for almost a year and now you have to leave it..i dont feel like talking bout it..till tmr then...

2008-11-09T06:18:00.000-08:00

Today marks the date of my granpa 100th day.Spend all day at my grandma hse.It was so miserable without my granpa.So cold and lonely,no more singing of old songs,buying cartoon CD,Making us laugh,the time where we spent as a family at the beach,it was no more.Now it seems so empty.I realise now that we take things for granted.When they are there,you dont realise but after they are gone then you will start to wonder and feel lonely.Its just so hurtful.How i wish he could come back and join us but we have to let him go,i bet he is happy at the after world.I wish him the best.Nothing happen much today,so i will end here today...

2008-11-08T05:35:00.000-08:00

Went to the ART BIENNALE EXHIBITION.pretty cool.ME, SUFIAH, RIZKHA, NADD and her BF, ADI, HAFIZ and FADLY.haha.It was fun and i ended up paying the fees.(but they payed back)haha.Nadd went her bf,didnt even saw them in the exhibition.We saw bloody nice art pics and sculpture.i got half of them and suff got alot!cheh!The pics are below(art pics and us having fun in the midst)hehe.

It was like so COOL.haha.After all the happening stuff,we went to marina bay to eat as SUFIAH AND RIZKHA kept complaining they were hungry.haha."Wanna go clarke quay? or marina bay?" "Wanna eat BK,LJ or MAC?" It was seriously funny.haha.We saw American mans playing football at the big padang infront of the supreme court.Rizkha was like "OMG,are they like hot or what?"haha.We walk from the exhibition to Marina.It was totally pack with people.There was this shop that call desigual,was like DAMN EX lah.Can you imagine,1 boxers cost you like 47 bucks!I can like buy many stuff with 47 bucks!But the clothings there are nice and striky.haha.Went to eat at BK.cant like finish the burger so brought it back.Rizkha saw someone ey!haha,Dont want to mention about it.haha.Nadd and rizkha irritated suff with zong da.haha.Ohh!Not forgetting suff cousin,aisyah came with us too!haha.after her amazing race.After eating and talking crap stuff as we always do,it was time to say goodbye.ow!Nadd and her bf went off then it was the guys.So left me,sufiah,rizkha and aisyah but it was still fun.haha.I was shopping with my mum presents,her bday coming up,turning 34!haha.still young and her daughter is already 15!ah!haha.Bought her a necklace that states mother and daughter.cool rite!I hope she like it cause i do.Still going to buy something for her.Then we went to topshop and we met jolene and sheryl there.haha.Saying like "hi,hello,as usual.hehe"So after like 5 mins of talking we went in and like look around as rizkha wanted to buy a dress for the prom night this friday.Not fair!ah!She get to wear dress and i have to wear councillor uni!ish!I bought something at topshop.haha.Brought aroung 60 to 70 bucks so i was rich.hehe.i left with 3 bucks when i reach home!cheh!But it was worth it.It was like 7 already so had to go home.promise to be home before night but it always ended up what you dont expect.haha.In the mrt,me riz and suff talk bout prom nite,like who is going to be the prom queen,king and stuff like the dress.haha.Aisyah was sitting down as we were standing.I cant wait for next year and we already plan what to buy.haha.So after everything reach pasir ris already.Suff and aisyah went to white sand while me and riz went home.We talked stuff aboout you-know-who.haha.Only riz knows about it.so shussh!haha.There was like a jam at downtown east was like damn long lah.Rizkha had stomach ace.haha.So that was like the end of my day and my aunt came to my house,duh family talks about family stuff ryt?haha.So now typing my blog at 10:21 pm.nothing better to do.haha.So ill continue tomorrow if anything nice happen or maybe bad!haha.
Bluek!

2008-11-01T03:30:00.000-07:00

I feel so dead ryt now.Nothing can help me now.I can only hug my bear back,the only thing i could hug,squeeze.Why can't my life be the same as it used to be?I feel so rejected in life.REJECTED!ya thats right.I want someone to loved me, i feel so empty inside.Really Empty.I can't leave just yet.I have to do something before i go.Sometimes its hard to forget but im going to that place where once true memories can come to live.The only place i could ease myself.No one will know that place just me.Im going tomorrow.Thats the only place i can go now.

2008-10-30T05:37:00.000-07:00

I find it easier now.Letting you go have made me a better person.Eventhough im going to have a fun and scary time soon,i'll make people happy before everything change for good.Every single one.Do i have a choice?Can i don't do what im going to do?Are they going to be hurt by my action?All will be revealed when the times come.Hopefully a miracle will happen and i can regain everything back the way it was used to be before you and this came into my life.If it does,i'll be over the moon, jumping in joy and having the time of my life.How i wish i do have it back!
Just pray for it.Now im going to make people smile,laugh and do whatever i can to still hold on before the chances become slim.Talking about chances make me remember something or someone.Let's forget about it.No more creating trouble before something bad happen and ill be in for it.I can go anytime i want but i don't know when is the right time.If anyone need my help, don't hesitate to ask me before you regret it.That will be all,just tune in for more tommorrow...

Life

2008-10-28T04:30:00.000-07:00

Ya ya.Today the starting of foundation programme.GREAT!It was so boring!haha.I am going to live my life to the fullest before i leave.I cant tell when or whatsoever.haha.Its a secret.Beg me all you want but i will never tell.Foundation programme is like pathetic 4 hours! Lessons are so dull, not exciting at all except the teasing part.haha.miss nancy ng,my home tutor.Slept in the afternoon, was super tired.Oh ya,I GOT A NEW PHONE!haha and I LOVE IT!My first love!at least it will stay with me forever then my previous first love.I'm half over you already,its okay anyway i will leave soon.

Cant take it!

2008-10-21T05:18:00.000-07:00

What do i do know? Im in pain every single minute.I cant bear it anymore, i feel like giving up.I cant let you go, seriously i cant.I have never been this way before, in pain and having sickness.I have to bear alone, i cant make anyone hurt right now.Ill cherish every single minute and every single moment in life left for me.If i have to give up, hopefully you people can let me go.I have to sacrifice everything i have left with all my hopes down now, im useless.I cant move on any longer, im happy living til here...

Hurt!

2008-10-20T22:04:00.000-07:00

Hurt right now.Can't bear it alone.Will it ever stop? How do i? Its was my first and now i have to let it go.How hurting can that be.My first and its gone.Im the one to blame.Im leaving soon and it hurts.Im trying to get over your smile,your laughter,your face and everything of our memories together. I can't believe it.You said you will love me till the end of time but why do it have to turn out this way? It hurts.Reading the letters we shared,looking at everything we went through,walking down the path where we usually walk,it hurts.Wanting you is like a world but you left me crying in the rain.Im too hurt.
I have to let you go thats what i tell myself, it will hurts but i have too.

Death!

2008-10-20T05:59:00.000-07:00

Many thoughts have been running through my head and i realise that im feeling worser each day passes.Being sick is not what i chose but i have to face it.Throwing up whatever i eat,feeling dizzy,coughing badly and feeling the pain i have to suffer.Whats going on? I asked myself..am i going to die? Death can be scary but we have to face it.Death does not wait.My day will come soon.This sickness just kept on coming.Im seriously tired of it.Do i choose death over life or life over death? If i still live, ill be feeling the pain but if i die my family and friends will be hurt.This is one serious depressing moments i have to deal with.If i do live, everyone around me will feel hurt.I do not want that.My main goal was to make people happy no matter who they are.Looking at the smiles on each faces i gave was a warmth melted my heart.I hope those people i gave happiness to,still remember me cause if im gone,ill be watching them and taking care of them.Im happy living til here so if my times comes,just let me go.Im a bird who is waiting to fly.It will hurt at first but you will realise that its better for me to go then staying.Choosing death is not my choice but we still have to face it.Maybe i will live and maybe i dont.Hope you people will still remember me even when im gone..

EOY!

2008-09-18T05:23:00.002-07:00

Hey Guys! Sowie bout yesterday was doing my work u see.its going to be end of year examinations.pretty scared. Already sec 3! so fast.haiz. Im studying like hell right now with alot of schedule on my back.haiz.
No time to play and what so ever.cheh! Finding that school life is getting suckish each day! and im not lying. Seriously true! Ya school life has nothing much to say with me sleeping in physics class, was too tired, cant even take it already. Im studying 9 subjects now! wow! so cheh! 7 more days to Eoy and im dying already! while there is still 12 more days to hari raya. Luckily this year we do not have to fast when its examination.phew! hehe.anyway so have you guys the story? hope u guys did.haha. its super long.haha.ya tats all for now..so ya..toodles peeps!

WOW!

2008-09-16T05:16:00.000-07:00

Hey its already 16 days of fasting! very fast.hehe.Today its still the same thing for me with cca going on but today there is an interesting story that i heard which the whole malay class of 3/3 and 3/4 had to guess this particular story which made us guess for nearly an hour or so.haha. The answer was lame.Its a long damn story that our relief teacher gave us.I was seriously enthu in it, asking some lame question but it was fun.haha. But at least i know the answer in the end.hehe
I was like literally jumping up and down telling the answer.I was seriously enthu.haha.I bet everyone has to comment on this especially subhi.haha.So and subhi did his speech today like ya right the parliment house was one his granfather's house.haha.Subhi speech was the best of all.haha.Making us laugh throught out his speech like for example.This is wat he wrote. "For your own safety please have interest in Subhi speech" It was like haha.okie.Today have nothing much just this and netball was doing courtwork.Tiring!haha but its for our incoming tournament and friendly matches so hopefully we can do our best!hehe
so till next time GUYS!

Blogging!

2008-09-15T05:13:00.000-07:00

Sorry ah! didnt update my blog for the past two days was at my grandma
house hehe.Saturday was GREAT! Buka puasa with all my friends! Let me name them.hehe. Sufiah!Nabilah!Rizkha!Nadiah!and nadiah boyfriend!Patrick!Fadly! and Asroy! SUBHI didnt even come and end up eating wif his friends thx alot eh SUBHI.hehe
So ya School today was like passing by so fast, havin maths "tuition" so called.My maths sucks now and i seriously want to improve on it! Striving hard to.But im still having fun though.Too bad this year i cant celebrate Hari Raya cause my grandad just pass away.Im so sad his not around, i miss his presence.Now keeping my grandma company.haiz.Why do life has to be so cruel? Im going to fulfill my grandpa final wishes for me.To Study hard and succeed in life! Ill never forget about him!So ya guys thats all nothing much to talk bout today. Wait till i find an interesting stories to blog about!hehe

Till next time Guys!

ReNEW

2008-09-10T00:43:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps!

Long tym ryt i didnt lyk Blog.Too tired to Blog.hehe.Im going to blog from now on so dun worry!!Today ah quite BORING!haha.Did my speech for english and was lyk "erm are u ppl listening to me?"haha it was so quiet!Mine was about Singapore at World events.So i blab and blab about it and i thought it was overall passing mark.haha.This Speech cause like 60marks for our EOY!!EOY coming like less than 3 weeks time!Everyone Studying hard!Sec 3 already!Time flies fast.I have nothing much to say coz im stuck blogging at school library.so BORING!

till my next post peeps!